Ramblings of a Slave with No Sleep!

Sir/Ma'am,

Functioning without structure and sleep is very very hard. Master had just gotten me to this wonderful glorious point, then had to leave on business for a few days. I am dying... not just from the inability to cum (try as I might), it just won't CUM!~ It's from the lack of discipline, structure, follow through and presence.

I am lost without Master. My thought process is slow and weak, my joy, escaping through a leak somewhere, each day. Even this blog is suffering. I am at a loss for words. (Master would say that was a miracle and a break through) I have a couple of friends who are keeping me grounded, but even more who are trying to undo what Master has accomplished with me. Last night I swear everyone knew Master was gone and I hadn't said a thing. Three people wanted me to cyber with them.... where is the respect of asking the Master over the slave???

I have been thinking about our future. This one is kinda hard. We know we want to eventually add people into our lifestyle, here and there, but not sure where it all fits in, how, what about jealousy etc. I'm not just talking about me being jealous... but Master too. When I met Master I was bi-sexual and he knew it. So to bring up girls in sex talk, definitely helps :-) Master is a typical male who would love to see his slave with another girl. I chose to give up women when we got married, now this brings it all back. I am bi-sexual, and I get the chance to show my Master (not now but sometime in the future how I can love a woman too.

I am wondering how the rest of our community deals with bringing in others. Did it help, destroy, etc???

I'm just worried I guess and very very tired LOL!

Short blog today, but still there! :-)

Thank you for your time and attention, Sir/Ma'am.

Sinfully Red
www.sinfullyred.blogspot.com
BDSMMasterandslave@gmail.com